http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/posts/page/1/ en Vox Wed, 30 Jul 2008 06:54:36 -0400 Copyright 2008 http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/am-i-real-1.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/am-i-real-1.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/am-i-real-1.html?_c=feed-rss Wed, 30 Jul 2008 06:54:36 -0400 Not having the job means I've been able to get some things accomplished here. Not much, with the heat, but some. A couple of days ago I woke up with a sore throat and fever. I still feel kind of sick but not too bad. The tree guys are coming. Mon... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/am-i-real-1.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fa968cc1690003?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/missing-mommmiedobbie-seven-months-today.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/missing-mommmiedobbie-seven-months-today.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/missing-mommmiedobbie-seven-months-today.html?_c=feed-rss Mon, 21 Jul 2008 16:42:44 -0400 <p class="enclosed-assets" style="margin-bottom: 10px;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/photo/6a00e398ac8048000400fa968a3c4b0003.html?_c=feed-rss" style="float:left; margin-right:6px;"><img src="http://a3.vox.com/6a00e398ac8048000400fa968a3c4b0003-50si" alt="Nice." /></a> <br style="clear:both;" /> </p> Days now are beginning to let happiness leak into my life, but that happiness is frequently followed by sudden sickness in my soul: she isn't coming home. She was hospitalized a few times over the years when I was small and more often, lately. I k... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/missing-mommmiedobbie-seven-months-today.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fa968997a10002?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/it-may-be-time-to-say-goodbye.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/it-may-be-time-to-say-goodbye.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/it-may-be-time-to-say-goodbye.html?_c=feed-rss Wed, 09 Jul 2008 19:15:50 -0400 I started this site primarily to unload the emotional garbage that was piling up around me last year, and then it turned into a journal, and then it became the place I wandered back to occasionally, to chronicle my grief process. It's been less t... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/it-may-be-time-to-say-goodbye.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fa9685f88c0002?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/she-climbs-a-tree-and-scrapes-her-knee.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/she-climbs-a-tree-and-scrapes-her-knee.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/she-climbs-a-tree-and-scrapes-her-knee.html?_c=feed-rss Mon, 07 Jul 2008 14:31:24 -0400 I just made an appointment with a "tree preservation specialist" -- recommended by an old friend of my Mom -- a guy who used to work for them. He knows our trees and knows that money isn't plentiful and knows how good they are at that company. Mos... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/she-climbs-a-tree-and-scrapes-her-knee.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fae8c9ded7000b?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/six-months-six-years-six-minutes.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/six-months-six-years-six-minutes.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/six-months-six-years-six-minutes.html?_c=feed-rss Sat, 21 Jun 2008 16:36:10 -0400 Today, sometime in the late morning/early afternoon, six months ago, Mom died. I don't know the exact time, or even within an hour of the time, because I was downstairs eating my lunch and watching TV when it happened. She was alive when I left h... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/six-months-six-years-six-minutes.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fa968075970002?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/tiny-deaths.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/tiny-deaths.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/tiny-deaths.html?_c=feed-rss Sun, 15 Jun 2008 07:22:15 -0400 Another end of something happened a couple of days ago, and although it has little to do with Mom directly, it hurts much more than it would have, without the guilt I feel about it. Not long after I left law school in 1997 I decided to work on wr... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/tiny-deaths.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fae8c309ef000b?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/well-here-i-am-again-hot-and-sad.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/well-here-i-am-again-hot-and-sad.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/well-here-i-am-again-hot-and-sad.html?_c=feed-rss Sun, 08 Jun 2008 17:01:18 -0400 Things have been going OK, process-of-grief-wise. I've been making progress, mostly, and finding my way alone. But this sudden heat and the arrival of real summertime has shot it all to hell. Mom LOVED hot weather, when I was little. I took after... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/well-here-i-am-again-hot-and-sad.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fa967d2fea0003?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/qotd-memorial-day---not-the-same-except-for-the-wars.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/qotd-memorial-day---not-the-same-except-for-the-wars.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/qotd-memorial-day---not-the-same-except-for-the-wars.html?_c=feed-rss Mon, 26 May 2008 09:13:50 -0400 How are you spending this Memorial Day? How will it differ from Memorial Days past? This year I put out the flags the way I did after Dad died, and every year since. It was always his job. I took it over, after. And every year, Mom and I would s... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/qotd-memorial-day---not-the-same-except-for-the-wars.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fad68b705e0004?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> qotd memorial day http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/havent-posted-here-for-23-days-but-today-i-feel-the-need.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/havent-posted-here-for-23-days-but-today-i-feel-the-need.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/havent-posted-here-for-23-days-but-today-i-feel-the-need.html?_c=feed-rss Sun, 25 May 2008 08:36:12 -0400 And it's not about Mom, or grief; but me and my odd life. I stopped drinking alcohol in the summer of 1997. We had a long relationship, but didn't get along well at all. So I stopped. That was it. A few days were tough in the beginning, mainly bec... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/havent-posted-here-for-23-days-but-today-i-feel-the-need.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400fae8bc9cfd000b?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p> http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/replies-to-make-but-first-this-todays-the-first-surgery-since-mom-died.html?_c=feed-rss nobody@vox.com(byrondarius) http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/replies-to-make-but-first-this-todays-the-first-surgery-since-mom-died.html?_c=feed-rss http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/replies-to-make-but-first-this-todays-the-first-surgery-since-mom-died.html?_c=feed-rss Fri, 02 May 2008 06:39:17 -0400 I have comments to reply to here - you sweet people left some and I didn't come back to answer them. Each time I did, I started to cry. Such is grief: just when you think it's wandered off, it sneaks up behind you and says, "Booga-Booga!!" I've h... <p style="clear:both;"> <a href="http://byrondarius.vox.com/library/post/replies-to-make-but-first-this-todays-the-first-surgery-since-mom-died.html?_c=feed-rss#comments">Read and post comments</a> | <a href="http://www.vox.com/share/6a00e398ac8048000400f48d12c7740001?_c=feed-rss">Send to a friend</a> </p>